Do you ever have
April 17, 2011 Leave a comment
Do you ever have one of those days when you wake up wrong and the day just gets more and more wrong from there? I mean, down to where even the easiest things to do right – like take a shower or throw a load of laundry in or decide what to have for dinner – end up feeling like they will turn out as wrong as everything else has so far, so you get to the point where you don’t want to do anything at all!
I don’t mean the same kind of ‘don’t want to’ as when you’re depressed or just emotionally swamped. I’m not even talking about the kind of frozen in fear ‘don’t want to’ that high anxiety or panic attacks can cause. I just mean, really, truly lacking in motivation and yet so stuffed with frustration that everything just feels wrong.
Full of cactus spines,
dripping with dangerous venom,
poke you til you bleed,
Do you have those days?
Please say you do…because I am having one right now and don’t want to feel all alone over here in Wrongville.
So, you may be thinking, what could possibly have driven me to this amount of wrongness?
I’m pretty sure my dog’s dying.
I need to work out but am fighting a migraine and every single time I move my head splinters a little more. Not very fun.
I can’t sew or craft to save my life, which, considering how many years I’ve spent doing this stuff, it really does save my life and sanity. So it stinks to be so miserably cut off from it.
But the main thing that’s so wrong is that we have a huge thing to go to tonight with thousands of people and I really, really am dreading it. I know. They are just people, they’re all nice, it will be great once I’m there…I can hear it all, have heard it all, don’t really want to hear it again. I am allowing myself to be a little overwhelmed and I’m fine with it. I’m still going, I’m just dreading it a little.
So that’s my day right now.
How wrong is yours?