I’m so tired
March 24, 2010 4 Comments
People think that working from home should be easy, that you should just fit it in in between naps and late lunches with your friends and maybe you could try folding a shirt or two or flicking a piece of dust off a shelf and you’re good to go.
Well, I am here to tell you, this is the worst misconception EVER!!
I worked so hard this week and last week that I feel like I’ve been running a marathon nonstop. We had Gracie’s monthly meeting with her teacher today – we were all caught up for once, but there is still that flurry of stress right before hand where we run around like crazy looking for things we misplaced three weeks ago that we need right this second. That was one stressful subject.
We are still in the process of getting my youngest sister and her husband moved (temporarily) into our house. In fact, they are on their way home with their last load as I type this. That’s been another stessor – both the actual moving process, as well as getting used to having them around and settled in.
We’ve been working like crazy in our yard to get stuff ready for spring, planting seeds and mowing lawns and trying to get organized with no real money to spend or new ideas on how to deal with not having a usable garage and needing that extra storage space especially with more people living here now.
On top of all of that, teaching and the regular housework and then spring cleaning, I also have two jobs. Yes, they are technically jobs where I stay home and do the same thing that I’d be doing anyway, but the truth is, having someone else’s kids in your care prevents you from doing a lot of what you would normally be doing. I take care of an 18 month old girl, an 8 year old and a 9 year old. Everyday I have to go to the school to pick the 9 year old up, which throws me all of out of whack, and I have to make sure homework and snacks and outside play time get taken care of, all while dealing with the smartest, craziest, most rebellious toddler ever born. All of the other stress in life barely measures up to just half of the stress of being stuck at home with all of these kids and responsibilities!
AND, we had the exterminators out here yesterday – it’s going to cost almost $500 to get rid of the fleas in our yard and living room! I’m so annoyed by the whole thing. But I do want them gone, asap, so I’m glad it shouldn’t take too long.
On a different note, I am still discovering different ways that my unfortunate decisions of a few years ago are affecting my present situation. I was dragged (coerced and ordered and demanded to be present) to a baby shower of the weekend. It turned out to be fun, but considering the people involved and the family dynamic and the utter strangeness of things that have happened, it was an uncomfortable situation that I would have been much happier avoiding. On the one hand, it was depressing to think about; I actually caught myself wondering about different things that might have happened, and just wondering in general. On the other hand, I was really irritated to know that someone I had trusted had broken a huge confidence and talked about things that should never have been talked about. There were some uncomfortable questions and I ended up getting really angry, but handled everything the best I could. It was probably worth it, because if nothing else I know now that my uncle and aunt always have my back no matter how many traitors open their mouths, but I still wish the whole stupid thing would just go away. You know?
Crafting wise, I have been dragging my feet. I lost my art journal yesterday and don’t really care about finding it right now, because I am at a creative block. I have been cutting out quilt pieces like crazy today and having a good time with it, because it’s not actually work and I can do it while the kids are eating or reading or writing on my walls or whatever.
Well I really think that I may go eat a sandwhich or something and then go to bed. It’s not even 7 yet but I am so stinking tired and stressed that I might have to give in and give up for the day!!
What about you? What have you been doing lately? How many traitors with big mouths do you wish you’d never met? And are they really traitors, or is just that you don’t deal with the fact that you were wrong for letting the situation get out of control? Share your thoughts, misery, gripes, or whatever you want…I promise tomorrow’s blog will be happier and have a picture!!!