Things on my mind…
July 2, 2009 8 Comments
First of all, today was another horrible day. (You all have no idea to what “other” horrible days I’ve been going through, but my video diary does. It’s been a rough two weeks.) And now I can’t sleep – again – and I’m impotently furious – again – and I miss all of my friends tremendously. Sometimes it’s when we’re surrounded by those who are supposed to love us that we feel the loneliest…why do I keep forgetting this?
My mom is home from the ICU with an 11 inch scar running from just under her shoulder blade to her chest. She’s full of drain holes and scars and pain pills that don’t seem to help so much. The chemo and radiation is set to start in a few weeks and I’m – we are all – dreading that almost as much as the surgery itself.
As for diet and working out, let’s just say it sucks right now. I went to the grocery store to buy healthy food and instead got so confused about what I was supposed to buy that I came home without anything. I really really hate shopping and food, have I mentioned that lately?
And then tonight, there was an incident about dinner. DH wanted my help to make it, and I didn’t want to eat it, let alone figure out what to have. So I lost my temper, he lost his, and we all ended up grouchier than before. Eventually he gave in and left me alone and I eventually ate. It was not a wonderful night.
ALSO, I am officially sick of my hair and summer. It’s time for scissors, beer and Alaska. Or Canada. Or Norway, I have lots of family there. I may have to settle for the Olivehurst community swimming pool, but it’s nice to think about leaving town.
Okay, so it’s true, sometimes I just come post here to whine and get it all out of my head. Thanks for reading. 🙂