D-day has arrived.

Or maybe “C” day would be more fitting.

Whatever. The point is, today (well, it’s 11:45 PM, so in 15 minutes) is THE DAY.

Mom’s surgery starts at 7:00 AM. By 8:30 they should know if they are going to go ahead with the whole thing or if the cancer has spread to her lymph nodes. While she will be peacefully dreaming, the rest of us will be crammed in a tiny waiting room and sleeping in hospital corners waiting for the news.

Well, I’ll probably be in the mental institution down the road being force fed sedatives so I don’t die, but that’s another post all on its own.

I wish tomorrow was already here and gone so I’d know what happened and what to do with myself. Right now it’s all about making plans and back up plans and figuring out wills and where we’ll move to and whatever else has to happen in case of worst case scenarios. It’s not fun or pretty or even realistic but when my anxiety flares up like this I talk, and over analyze, and end up having chest pains and hyperventilating.

Okay, enough of this! Just keep our family in your hearts and thoughts and I’ll post what I know as soon as I possibly can.


About messymama
I'm a SAHM with a busy schedule and a love of too many things to count! I sew, I write, I draw, and I love to create. I'm always on the lookout for a new project idea. One other very important thing about me - my house is in a continual state of upheaval and mess. Slowly but surely I'm working through the piles and boxes, but I am still in the process, and some days it seems like it would be much easier to pack up and move!

One Response to D-day has arrived.

  1. srkenney says:

    I prayed for you when I read this. It will be ok, doctors have so much to work with now! Please give yourself a hug for me. You need to take a hot bath, have some tea. If I were there I would drive over right now and make you dinner, I just KNOW you have skipped food all day! Errr…

    I am a bit depressed tonight, too. I spent the day with my dead relatives….quite literally. I saw some amazing things, and it made me feel so sad that people have to grow old and pass away, but grateful too, because the weight of those we love and their decisions and everything is just so heavy on my heart. I discovered things about my family that I never knew. Good things, dark things, sad things. I feel like I have a 50 lb weight on my shoulders right now.

    Well, I miss home, and I miss you. Glad that my traveling is almost over. Seems like it’s been over a month. See you sooo soon! PS: what are you guys doing for Fathers day???



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